Thinspo Day Four

 One thing I hate about being a woman is that time of the month where my weight goes haywire. I've lost for lbs last week and now that I'm closer to that time, my weight is slowly going back up. I've been really strict on what I eat, even on fast food. Last night we had pizza and I went on live strong to see how much I could eat.

I ate a little over like, 165 calories, because I love papa johns pizza. I knowing me, if I didn't look it up, I would've eating 3 slices and all the buffalo wings so I'm very proud of myself. Now only if it wasn't my time of the month. Now I'm going to have to weight till it's past to be able to weight myself again.

Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.

My greatest fears about weight loss is not losing the weight. I've been through a time where I would try my hardest for a week or so and nothing comes off. Now that's scary. 

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I Have No Choice

Earlier today, my girlfriend, told me that I can't vent to her about something that's bothering me because, for a lack of better words, they are meaningless, worthless, and a complete waste of her time. So now, unfortunately, I'm going to have to use my blog to vent. I didn't want to though. I wanted it to be positive and inspiring. But now I'm going to have to use it to get things off my chest that's bothering me.

It hurts to know that I can't tell her what's bothering me. She complains to me too and I don't say anything about it because I want her to tell me. I want to know what's bothering her and if I can do something about it. I'm not going to share anymore. I'm going to be blank. If she wants to do something that bothers me, I'll let her do it because it's not like my opinions matter.

It actually felt good to say that. I'm tired of stressing over something and know that she doesn't even care about why it bothers me. It's not only her either. It's ppl around me in general. There's SOMETHING wrong with me when I have a problem. Just because they are use to it happening doesn't mean that I am. It bothers me a lot and I just want some ppl to understand!! Why do I have to cry in a corner when everyone else is ok. Laughing, having causal conversation while something is bothering me and I can't share it or I'll get weird looks. I'm tried... just tired.

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Thinspo - Day 3

I've been so busy that I haven't been up to post for a while. Well I've been doing this for a week now and I lost 4 lbs. I track my calories from Livestrong and it's a really great help. I'll just continue from where I left off on the questions and thank you Lara for you comment.


Day Three- A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?

I don't really have a person but I do want to cosplay and all the customes I want show the stomach. Here are a couple.

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I need to get into the routine.

I have not been doing so good on the food intake for the calories. I need to be more strict. Yesterday I had chinese food for dinner and I'm also having it for lunch. My dinner has to be light. I also have to exercise more. I had the time to yesterday but choose not to which is not in my best interest.

Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?

I'm 5'2 inches. I'm a average height for a woman. Even though it's hard for me to reach some items that are high, I'm really happy I'm no smaller.

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Thinspo Challenge Do Over

I did a challenge before called the Thinspo Challenge. I was for 62 days. I failed miserable. Now they have one for 30 days that I want to try. Take a look here: 30-Day Thinspo Challenge Wish me the best of luck as I try to go back down to my original weight of 127. And with that said, here is my first question.

Day One- Your stats

Weight: 156 (this morning, I was 154 yesterday :( )
Height: 5'2

That's all I know. 

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Livestrong.com

I've been neglecting counting my calories for a while now and I need to start doing it again. It really did help in watching what I eat. I re-planned my calorie goal on livestrong.com, I highly recommend this site, and it says that I should eat 1041 a day. I should be able to lose 1.5 a week. I will also excerise on top of that, either skating, walking or going to the gym. Speaking of gym, I found out that it's better for me to do 30 mins everyday in the morning then going twice or three times a week in the evening for a hour. It keeps me energized and I'm not trying to kill myself. I'll see how it goes and if this plan works.

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Updating sorry for not posting

I've stopped posting on my blog because I've became so busy with my freelancing. Which is a good thing. I've opened up a business in a farmer's market called Yellow Green Farmer's Market. I've gotten a lot of business from people passing by and asking me what I do. I've done logos and websites. It's been keeping me a float since my job's check has been going all towards bills with not a single penny to spare. I'll be updating with what projects I'm doing and where am I in my goal of owning my own business without working for someone else. BTW, I'm doing a website for South Beach Tow! It's so exciting. I'm talking to Robert himself! I'm almost done and I will be posting the finished website once I'm done with it.

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